Shattered

Sometimes when you think the world is crashing down around you, it's just the sound of the glass walls of your cage.

[listening to: "True Faith" by New Order]

It occurs to me that....

...there's a lot of irony when I play games on my television and then go to my computer to watch a TV weather forecast.

I just finished watching "Doctor Who: The Waters of Mars" and I thought it was brilliant.  Having watched this show since I was old enough to know what a TV was it just keeps getting better and better in this new incarnation.

Yet even in this form they tip their hats to the past.  The sound of the "cloister bell" from 1981's Logopolis was immediately recognizable, and signals the coming change of lead actor as the character nears his death.  The fact that 1981 was also the year we moved from England to Denver makes it have even more of an impact.

I was a worried eleven year old because I thought I may never see my favorite show again!  Luckily the technology of Star Wars, Star Trek, and Doctor Who all came to the rescue as computers, the internet, streaming media, global communications and instant access to vast amounts of data.  The word "if" was used in "Logopolis" a lot too...I.F. became Information File which was a simulated online instruction manual in the Tardis to help save the day in that story.  Now we don't think twice when we go online to look up how to do something, make something, get something or fix something.

Strong memories indeed.

And yes, I know....I am a geek...I hope that's ok with you.

[Listening to: David Bowie "Life on Mars?" Which was also the title of a paper I wrote in college that I was accused of plagiarizing but easily proved it was my original work. I got an A and the professor congratulated me for my writing.]

Mr. Big Nose

Mr. Big Nose, originally uploaded by ThomasWalker.

Smells like good things are going on. Just need to keep an eye on the pot until it's all done.

[listening to: "Map of the Problematique" - Muse]

See it through

Never give up on something you care about.

Never stop fighting for what you believe in.

You are stronger than you feel.

You have more control than you think.

See it through to the end.

This, then, applies to us all, especially now.

After the music

After the music, originally uploaded by ThomasWalker.

Other than the basic composition this was just messing around with post-processing. I don't have any fancy photoshop software....yet....so I make do with what I have and what came with my camera.

I think it needs some old posters and graffiti to look like a club post-act but oh well. I wanted to keep it simple.

So much change could happen this year. For once the majority of it could be for the better. Music plays a very important role in my life. It is mood altering, thought inspiring, emotionally charged, and either relaxing or invigorating depending on what you need at the time.

It is, for example, quite hard to work out to Tori Amos. And conversely difficult to relax to Nine Inch Nails. Yet oddly enough the two have collaborated.

Sometimes it's the differences that make things interesting.

[listening to "Sweetest Perfection" - Depeche Mode]

#7 Strings and Pickups

#7 Strings and Pickups, originally uploaded by ThomasWalker.

I should really learn to play this beast for real.

[listening to "Today" - Poe]

Small Talk With Clothing

"YEEEAaaaaarrrgghhhhh!!" said my pants.

Me: "um, what?"

Pants: "You heard me."

Me: "well, yes and probably some neighbors did too, but what's your problem?"

Pants: "oh come on, even inhaling you almost fired my button in to orbit just now."

Me: "what? no I didn't!"

Pants: "denial ain't just a river in Egypt ya know."

Me: "Dammit. Ok point taken. But you were loose when I got you."

Pants: "and how long ago was that?"

Me: "..."

Pants: "there you have it then."

Me: "ok ok I'll do something about it then."

Pants: "about damn time, sheesh, I've been waisting away here for too long."

Me: "don't ever try to be funny again."

Pant: "fair enough."

So begins the dive back in to regular excercise and stuff...

All along you must have known

Anything worth having comes with a price to pay.

I decided earlier this year...or maybe it was late last year...that I wasn't going to let life pass me by anymore. I thought to myself, "self, you need to seize opportunities no matter how slim the chance or how difficult the task or how high the cost. If the choice is between trying now or regretting not trying forever, then there is no choice."

So, while not many of these opportunities have presented themselves thus far, I am still living by this credo.  I am hoping that it works in my favor in 2010.

I'm feeling a bit better about things close to me.  The world is still a giant ball of crap, but to be honest I can't really worry about that too.  Until I need to fly somewhere and the TSA snaps on the rubber glove, I need to keep my sphere of concern limited to more immediate and personal matters.

Things that make me happier. Or at least less sad.

I've been smiling a lot more.  This is a Very Good Thing.

[listening to "Good + Bad Times" - INXS]

Second time's a charm

I think maybe I am ready to blog again.  It's going to be different this time; a spur-of-the-moment-stream-of-consciousness-random-crap sort of thing.

You'll probably hate it.

Mainly I don't want to forget things I just thought of a few minutes ago.  I seem to do that a lot lately. Maybe the plate in my head is squeezing my brain.

I'm near to figuring out what it is that's been bothering me for, oh, years.  I think.  And I also think that maybe if I write down the clues that not only will I not forget them, but I may even be able to piece the mystery together.  Something like Scooby Doo if the stories were penned by Nietzsche and the masks were real.

I also feel the need to write before I lose the urge to Write.

Apologies to Mr. Hutchence for stealing part of a song line for my blog title.